Dialogue

The teachers say that the one's who struggle the most with their dialogue end up being the best teachers because they work so hard at it, and it stays with them longer. If that is the truth, I am going to be the BEST DAMN TEACHER in the world!!! Oh, I am having such a hard time with it. I get nothing but good feedback and great encouragement, but I am feeling very discouraged right now. I did Half-Tortoise this afternoon, and again it was choppy and slow. I just wanted to give up.

I had a little pity party for one during yoga class this afternoon, and cried it out. We had a great kick-ass visiting teacher, Lisa. It was the first time I was crying AND still kept doing the postures, that's how motivating she was! It also helped that she asked the teachers to move up into empty spaces among the students, and Damien was a couple of rows in front of me. That helped a lot. She played Bob Marley's "Everything's Gonna Be Alright" at the end of class. That made me cry more, but it also felt like a message JUST for me.

I am not writing this for you to feel badly for me. This blog is my journal, and I am "trusting the process" that [like the song says] everything's gonna be alright. I want to be able to look back on this, and go "Ah, now I see...". Maybe it will also help future students.

I am okay now, just knowing there are only 4 postures left and Melissa will be here one week from today!!!